three days in Baltimore flat on my back with the flu I finally felt well
enough to catch up on email...
Date: Fri, 31 Dec 1999 16:30:03 -0600
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You have no musical talent, but you've found a new toy that lets you engage
in mental masturbation and you think you've conceived something novel. The
result is a collection of nonsense clips that are no better than the stuff
I come up with on the sound recorder of my PC. I'm disappointed --- I expected
these clips to show some imagination, at the very least.
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<DIV><FONT color=#000000 size=2>You have no musical talent, but
you've found a new toy that lets you engage in mental masturbation and you
think you've conceived something novel. The result is a collection
of nonsense clips that are no better than the stuff I come up with on the
sound recorder of my PC. I'm disappointed --- I expected these
clips to show some imagination, at the very
that hurt. It's amazing what a few harsh words from a stranger can do to
affect one's mood. I actually felt it somewhere between my chest and stomach,
sadness and pinched feelings which made me want to lash out and write a really
cutting reply. I tried one line, then another, and realized how that was
only intensifying my anger, not releasing it. Anger hadn't been my initial
response, but it grew out of my desire to hurt someone as they had hurt me.
Once I stopped trying to hurt, I stopped being angry. Weird.
My cutting edge Eudora Light 1.01 email client places attachments at the
bottom of messages, so I hadn't noticed the attachment at first. Here,
apparently, was an example of what SCHMECK was no better
listened to it and replied:
|From: zveRina email@example.com
Date: Thursday, January 06, 2000 12:33 PM
Subject: anger, rage, rancor
Hey, I like squawkbox. Thanks for sharing.
Keep making music--maybe it will purge some of your hostility.
Better to mentally masturbate than infect others with hate...
expected either no reply or another flame. Instead...
|To: "zveRina" firstname.lastname@example.org
Subject: Re: anger, rage, rancor
Date: Thu, 6 Jan 2000 14:06:50 -0600
Sorry, I was in a bad mood that day. Thanks for your very civil reply. I'm
glad you liked squawkbox. Keep making musical novelties. To tell you the
truth, I love mental masturbation. It feels good, and you don't need a towel
made me feel nice. I had curbed my kneejerk response to lash out at that
which hurt with more hurt, keeping to my resolution to spread the
vibration in the twenty-hundreds and beyond, and the result was a ripple
effect of good feeling instead of intensifying negativity. So next time you're
on the road and someone cuts you off, instead of shooting them, smile and
blow them a kiss. Do it like you mean it and you will.