you might have already guessed: this website is fucking bullshit.
bullshit in the sense that it's not very honest, is quite comfortable
with pretense. but! i'm trying. hoping that by doing it every day i'll at
least approach an approximation of truth--not just in overcoming
the lies i tell you (omission, revision), but by digging deeper, into the
stuff i hide from myself without even knowing it. what good will that do?
who the fuck knows? but it seems like a worthwhile goal. and the way to get
there is just spew...
and if that sounds a little harsh, or negative, good! fuck phony optimism
and false civility. if two people were to have a real conversation, they
might conclude that the world is indeed a very fucked up place and not getting
any better, so they'd have to stage an intervention. 'zooks! that sounds
like work. better to just take your change with an insipid smile and say
have a nice day.
speaking of which, i had a really nice day today. hung out with rodman and
steve stamping molten glass. too much alone time can be very bad. TV/internet
does not count as a friend.