...Blowjob. [from the "First..." series]
my first blowjob was on
my girlfriend's parents' boat.
it was docked at a friend's
backyard. we had to sneak on.
we were there to celebrate her
17th birthday but i was more in-
terested in what was in it for me.
i came bearing gifts in a milk crate:
whipped cream, carrots, cucumbers, &
other produce i thought could be used
sexually.
i brought condoms, too. i didn't ex-
pect to use 'em, but you never knew.
it was summer. the boat was musty.
it didn't get much use after her
father's stroke.
we quickly got naked. i didn't know
what i was doing but she knew. she
had a body like Manet's Olympia &
a pussy that was all perfume & candy.
when she was 15 a 31-year-old had
given her a book on how to give head.
she'd learned well.
i was so happy when she went down.
i'd been eating her out to set the mood
but now laid back as she took me
all the way into her mouth.
my dick's not huge but she remains
the only one who's ever gotten their
lips all the way down around the base
when it was hard.
she was really going at it, breathing
through her nose, it didn't take long
for me to come, straight down the back
of her throat. she didn't miss a beat,
just kept going, and i stayed hard until
20 minutes later i came again & she stopped.
she looked up with a smile. she didn't
have to wipe her mouth--she hadn't spilled
a drop. i came twice, i told her, thinking
she hadn't noticed & that was why she had-
n't stopped. i know, she said, i can tell,
and popped the chewed gum she'd set aside
back in her mouth.
written in seattle
about 12 years
after the fact