|High school was the
worst. I couldn't stand to be by myself. Strange
because as a child I didn't mind being solitary,
but maybe that's because I had plenty of playmates
when I wanted them and time alone in my room was
spent accompanied by a tiny black-and-white TV,
background chatter for company. Now I go days
without seeing another human face, but again
there's usually a mediated connection through
phone or computer screen. Regardless, my ambition
is to sit without distraction and merely exist.
I'm getting better at it and no doubt this place helps. But as
much as I enjoy learning to be still it's still a
gas to spend time among friends. Last night,
Brooke and Alicia were my first guests and it felt
good to talk and laugh around kitchen table
eating, drinking, and playing cribbage. Today
shaded a bit more epic as we visited local friends
who open their home to round-the-clock revels of
swimming, carousing, fun and games, and feasting.
Ah, yes, society.